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1.
Storm Clouds 02:12
The tornado sirens have stopped their howling The frogs are happy and I cannot sleep The cats for now desist from meowing The naughty dogs will never earn their keep Never earn their keep, never earn their keep, never earn their keep Storm clouds are fogging up my mind I can’t leave the day behind I wish I could just unwind Please Mr.Sandman be kind I lie awake and think about my job Dreaming of other ways to earn my keep The rain keeps falling there’s floods predicted How high will the frogs have to leap? Will the frogs have to leap, will the frogs have to leap, will the frogs have to leap Storm clouds are fogging up my mind I can’t leave the day behind I wish I could just unwind Please Mr.Sandman be kind
2.
I’m always anxious that I’m gonna get cheated on My anxiety riles me up and for the door I run I fall in love and then I try to make it all end It happens every time it’s just a question of when I hate it when we fight, when my heart starts beating fast, I think about all the cheaters I’ve been in love with in the past I know they aren’t you and I just want my head to stop, I’m trying to get better at this, I’m not going to give up I’m so anxious in love, or am I in love with being anxious I’m so anxious in love, or am I in love with being anxious Is there someone in the background trying to mess with my shit Someone who sees my happiness and wants to rob me of it I’m never ready for my heart to be torn from my chest I’ll never trust anyone not to stop loving me less I hate it when we fight, when my heart starts beating fast, I think about all the cheaters I’ve been in love with in the past I know they aren’t you and I just want my head to stop, I’m trying to get better at this, I’m not going to give up I’m so anxious in love, or am I in love with being anxious I’m so anxious in love, or am I in love with being anxious
3.
We’ve taken down all the art from the walls I don’t recognise where we live at all I liked it better when this wasn’t the next big place Now it’s getting harder to find a friendly face A friendly face, a friendly face It’s true that moving won’t fix anything I’ll still be lacking self-confidence and self-esteem I just think my time is up here and it’s time to move on So see ya later Nashville we’ve had a good run Had a good run All the new houses are built skinny and tall Our names are missing on all the creative roll calls It’s time to pack up and spread our wings Go on a new adventure with a few less things A few less things, a few less things It’s true that moving won’t fix anything I’ll still be lacking self-confidence and self-esteem I just think my time is up here and it’s time to move on So see ya later Nashville we’ve had a good run
4.
Band Aid 02:29
I pulled the band aid off It gave me a dry retch cough What we had was not enough I had to call the whole thing off Life is a fast spinning top Love fades you’re just left spinning All you’ve known you had to drop To forge a new beginning I’m a toy you can drop on it’s head I won’t quit risking my heart till I’m dead I’m so glad I was set free I resurrected who I used to be Life is a fast spinning top Love fades you’re just left spinning All you’ve known you had to drop To forge a new beginning Now I’ve met who I was looking for I know now I needed to walk out the door Pulling off the band aid removed the false scabs So I could bleed freely and not just settle for something drab Life is a fast spinning top Love fades you’re just left spinning All you’ve known you had to drop To forge a new beginning
5.
Fishing 02:06
I’m going out fishing I’m gonna be just fine Just what will pull up On the end of this line Will I pull in a big one So heavy it pulls me in Will I drown in this small pool Did I forget how to swim I’m fishing yeah just fishing I keep wishing yeah to stop fishing I’m fishing yeah just fishing I keep wishing yeah to stop fishing I have a hook in my mouth I bite down on the bait The line is reeling me in My head is on the plate I just need to find the river I need to escape Too long I’ve been the trickster Softly biting on the bait I’m fishing yeah just fishing I keep wishing yeah to stop fishing I’m fishing yeah just fishing I keep wishing yeah to stop fishing
6.
Black Out 02:36
I’ve had battles and setbacks believe me or not Life hasn’t always been so crash hot Like lots of others my childhood wasn’t great I’ve made a lot of stupid mistakes But I try not to hang it all up I try to keep a smile and act tough I get nervous every time I go out I try not to get drunk and black out I try not to cut absolutely everyone off Heading toward my depression like an airborne sloth I don’t like where I’m headed but I have to grit my teeth Try to bury my sadness and doubt down real deep But I try not to hang it all up I try to keep a smile and act tough I get nervous every time I go out I try not to get drunk and black out
7.
I’m living cheaply but I know I’m spending too much Credit scores, bank accounts and taxes, isn’t surviving enough? I’ve been in driving in circles trying to find a place to rest Living life out of suitcases hasn’t been the best Confused and restless, the search I’m on is endless I’ll work with whatever I find, leaving useless shit behind Confused and restless, the search I’m on is endless I’ll work with whatever I find, leaving useless shit behind My residency status has been in question for the past six years My sexuality has always been in question so just call me queer I’m always expecting to be greeted with a slap in the face It's a challenge to find a safe place to take up space Confused and restless, the search I’m on is endless I’ll work with whatever I find, leaving useless shit behind Confused and restless, the search I’m on is endless I’ll work with whatever I find, leaving useless shit behind
8.
Bad Day 03:05
Yeah I’m having a bad day, some dude cut me off on the freeway Yeah I’m having a bad day, some dude at the gym pushed me out of his way Yeah I’m having a bad day, I woke up this morning and realized it was rape Yeah I’m having a bad day, the nightmares I’m having won’t go away Bad Day, bad day To be a woman is to be afraid We are afraid of men everyday Don’t tell me to smile more on the street You don’t know what I hide when I grit my teeth Yeah she’s having a bad day, she rain into the door frame again today Yeah she’s having a bad day, her husband won’t let her out to play Yeah she’s having a bad day, she cleans up her husband’s mess and she’ll never get paid Yeah she’s having a bad day, her husband strangled her to death in a fit of rage Bad day, bad day To be a woman is to be afraid We are afraid of men everyday Don’t tell me to smile more on the street You don’t know what I hide when I grit my teeth
9.
No Seriously 02:55
We’ve been driving, so many miles, over the past few months Life suddenly grew, so serious and all we do now is run I don’t think, I’ve ever been this tired in all my life I’m sorry it’s been so serious love, thank fuck that you’re my wife No seriously, you say when I joke too much No seriously, I’m sorry it’s all been such a rush No seriously, I can’t wait till we’ve finished this move No seriously, I wouldn’t have made it without you Chicken finger fist fight, was out best road trip band name, that we made up After all these road trips, we can put our feet up and life won’t be so tough Our car stereo, getting stolen in Detroit, wasn’t the worst thing ever Now we just travel, wearing our head phones and it works out even better No seriously, you say when I joke too much No seriously, I’m sorry it’s all been such a rush No seriously, I can’t wait till we’ve finished this move No seriously, I wouldn’t have made it without you
10.
Shark Bait 02:53
There are some great big sharks out there Ready to swallow you whole, eat you rare The gaps, the holes, the hunger they must fill You are nameless, mindless food they must kill Float as best as you can Who knows when you’ll find land You’ll make it through the breaking waves To smoother sailing days You can’t stand in their way once their sights are set They only see that their needs need to be met Try not to bleed out when they take their first bite Just try to fight back, try as hard as you like Float as best as you can Who knows when you’ll find land You’ll make it through the breaking waves To smoother sailing days They will bang on their chest and swish their tail Acting like the typical aggressive alpha male You’ll be frozen in fear and you won’t think straight That’s how we all become the perfect bait Float as best as you can Who knows when you’ll find land You’ll make it through the breaking waves To smoother sailing days
11.
Grandma 04:00
My grandma says you can always find fun at home There’s interesting ways to look at wherever you may roam My grandma also writes me letters about how I should have a man I never write back because I just don't’ think she’ll ever understand Grandma, stop sending me shitty letters Grandma, they don’t make anything better Grandma, stop judging me from the outside Grandma, the gays don’t have to hide I have great memories of grandma’s shed in her backyard When I came out of the closet it made everything too hard I visited her in hospital and she told me I had changed Since then she just send me letters that make me more estranged Grandma, stop sending me shitty letters Grandma, they don’t make anything better Grandma, stop judging me from the outside Grandma, the gays don’t have to hide
12.
We’ve been living in vacation rentals waiting for something to drop 3 dogs, 3 cats and a fish in a minivan to our next stop We made temporary friends getting drunk at an Irish Pub in Queens I had the worst allergic reaction of my life when we were up in Ossining We’ve made so many plans that haven’t worked out how we expected We’ve made so many plans that haven’t worked out how we expected We just work with the unplanned Try to make the most of wherever we land We’ll keep it together somehow where we stand One day we’ll be living what we have planned We were told not to touch each other on the face in a bar in Peekskill I found a wooded area with the dogs where I could imagine getting killed Next we ended up in Malverne and our spirits were feeling beyond low Just a few more weeks of other people’s houses and we’ll have a place to call our own We’ve made so many plans that haven’t worked out how we expected We’ve made so many plans that haven’t worked out how we expected We just work with the unplanned Try to make the most of wherever we land We’ll keep it together somehow where we stand One day we’ll be living what we have planned

about

I wrote and recorded this album while my home life was in flux. My wife and our adorable animal entourage were homeless for a few months. We up and moved our lives from Nashville to New York for more opportunities and a new adventure. I was writing on the many road trips we went on from Nashville to New York. I was recording in all different places including numerous vacation rentals all around the New York area.

There are some sounds such as banging on tea cups, stroking sushi mats and a spoon hitting a saucepan (to name a few) that I sampled in. The original impetus for the project was to use whatever I had at hand to record with. Also to experiment with sampling objects from whatever it is that is "home". Whenever I get around to doing the project live I'd like to live sample and loop some of these original objects.

I also used a lot of alternate tuning on the guitar to see how it would push my compositions and melody constructions.

I've been finishing the basement by hand at the new house we've moved into in New York. It's still not quite done but the drums were recorded in what I've managed to achieve. I've never composed really much with drums before either so wanted to see what it might sound like. It's not great. My high hat high hates me and kept breaking too. Don't beat me up for it!

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released December 27, 2018

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Ladyshark Hempstead, New York

Ladyshark are a 3-piece, punk band currently based in New York. This all female trio uses guitar loops, bass, vocals and drums. Sarah Vardy is on guitar/guitar loops/lead vocals, Megan ‘Raygun’ Dillard is on bass/backup vocals and award winning percussionist Jane Boxall is on drums.
Ladyshark were Anu Sava. Anu Sava started out as a solo project from Sarah, front woman of Girl With Cake.
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